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Piss, Vinegar, And The Law Of Attraction.

October 20th, 2009 by Shaun Proulx

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Today’s post will seem abstract to many. My intention is that it speaks to those who are ready to hear it.

“Adventure and variety from a known place of security and well-being is delicious. Adventure and variety from inferiority or from a place of unworthiness, or from a place of fear – is torturous. The answer is not peace. The answer is connection – to yourself.” - Abraham

Isn’t that interesting? That quote comes from my studies of the Law of Attraction and the understanding and applying of it was a big, big, big moment of realization last night.

Most of my adventurous life runs smoothly and is joyous. Life for me is delicious, because the adventure is lived from security and well-being.

A couple of aspects, not so much. Oppressive and overbearing people who are in the mix in one area of my life have now caused and created a fairly interesting situation to watch unfold. People around me are feeling a loss of dignity and worthiness. They live in fear. They are at their wits end. The adventure for them, and, slowly, for me by virtue of proximity, is torturous.

So in the middle of feeling overwhelmed by this yesterday, I had a shift. And this shift, it took control of me, a full force of nature, not the other way around. The shift was that I wasn’t going to keep quiet any more. I wasn’t going to accept the latest crap with my usual “The Sun Will Come Out Tomorrow” attitude. I wasn’t going to watch people who don’t feel they have the “balls” to speak up not speak up – not when I have a perfectly good brain in my head and tongue in my mouth with which to use.

In my shift I stopped being “reasonable” and “optimistic”, behaviours I now understand I was exhibiting on this particular subject from a place of inferiority and unworthiness. Something I only realize now: in exhibiting these behaviours on this particular subject, I was not allowing me to keep up with me. No wonder it’s been feeling so awful.

And in the shifting, I also lost my temper. I don’t usually enjoy losing my temper, have almost always regretted it. But yesterday was different. I left wondering why I felt so damn fine. Losing my temper in this case wasn’t a regret, it was invigorating, it was life-giving, it was authentic.

I spent the evening pondering why moving from que-sera to rage felt better than I expected, even though no discernible change has been made to the circumstances as I know them to be. As my evening unfolded I came to the above quote and I got it: My anger made me feel well about this issue, about these oppressive people, it made me feel secure. Feeling rage, feeling fed up, voicing what I had to voice from a place of worthiness was a true connection to who I really am. Those previous feelings around this particular issue and these people - Pollyanna on the outside, insecurity, fear, fatigue, on the inside just could not exist anymore – it was all feeling so awful, because I am not an insecure, fearful person who feels worthless, I am not someone who allows overbearing and oppressive people to get away with their pussy ways and not without – at the very least – saying anything.

Anger isn’t where I plan on staying, but oh, the relief of that. How much nicer now to be on this adventure pissed off about something and not caring who knows it, rather than feel like an oppressed member of a highly dysfunctional family: “Don’t tell anyone what Dad says and does to us; smile and wave like it’s all okay.”

I am appreciatively piss and vinegar now, and man that feels so much better than the worry and the tiredness I have been feeling on this subject before. Now we’re getting somewhere. Now I’m allowing more of what I want; I can feel it. The Law of Attraction is all about how you are feeling. The better you feel, the better you attract what you asked for. And on this subject, anger is far better a feeling than helpless. Anger is closer to my own true alignment than powerlessness. While certain people might have preferred me quiet, and worried and burdened, it is from this new place on the emotional scale that I will live, no longer participating in in the silly, restricted, lacking, fear-based, fly-under the radar beliefs and behaviours that have left so many people I care about exhausted and feeling unworthy.

It’s from this space that I will move forward and do whatever is in front of me. All the while, appreciating the myriad aspects of my life that there are to appreciate, including the very people who caused me to arrive here – my ongoing evolution here on the raw and ragged edge appreciated most of all.

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8 Responses

Brandon Williams CPC writes:

October 20th, 2009 at 9:10 am

Hey Shaun what do you have to loose?
I personally don’t care what others think of me. I speak my mind.

I too have a group of people that make me feel that way. I chose not to give them any attention.

Then, I found you and GGT and all the possibilities…

I gave no value to what others think. Being oppressive and overbearing only happens when we agree with the thoughts that others have of us. Sometimes you just need to turn around and draw a boundary. Sounds like you did that. Call it anger or what have you. You drew a line and announced it,you let it be known that it’s there and to be respected.

I don’t call that anger.

SP writes:

October 20th, 2009 at 3:21 pm

Wow Proulx, Excellent article, I couldn’t stop reading it! You nailed it and it is definitley appreciated:) xo

Andrew writes:

October 20th, 2009 at 3:22 pm

Expressing your anger appropriately is not only natural but it’s healthy. Far better to let it out than internalize. It also helps others realize what your boundaries are and that they must repsect them.

Richard KiKoT writes:

October 20th, 2009 at 3:22 pm

Shaun,sometimes revenge is the pivot point – sometimes it can be anger – different emotions are different stops along the emotional scale. If you are feeling helpless, then to be able to shout and get mad could be your point of relief and is all still good in the hood. Of course, soon enough anger won’t be a point of relief and will be upstream. When it isn’t though… it can be your point of relief. ♥

Richard B writes:

October 20th, 2009 at 3:23 pm

Well done Shaun. I think you experienced something akin to a form of direct action against relations that have been quite oppressive in your energetic life. You spelled it out quite well when you wrote, “While certain people might have preferred me quiet, and worried and burdened, it is from this new place on the emotional scale that I will live… Read More”. It is not easy to struggle in such relations, and perhaps letting your emotional existence known to those who needed awareness was precisely the right kind of emancipation for you.

Superjudge writes:

October 21st, 2009 at 4:15 pm

Well said Mr. Proulx.

Why did the chicken cross the road they ask me?

I sit, and think, and then say, he crossed the road because he had realised it was ok to do so. Should he want to come back, and granted he does not succomb to a 235 50 17R Uniroyal, he may do that as well without having to explain why. It just is.

What a vast and interesting discussion…. no?

Shane Percy writes:

October 28th, 2009 at 4:03 pm

i love this article.